"I forgot to tell you I love you..."

The hunger for love is much more difficult to remove than the hunger for bread. ~Mother Teresa

Amen! Mother teresa clearly knew what she was talking about.

Love is the name of the game today.

I've been wondering about love lately and what it's all about (guess it's cause of all of the wedding photos) Love in the romantic sense that is. Not the way you love your mother or your friends, the way you love that someone special. Have I ever felt it? I don't know...I think so, yet I can't really say. Well I can honestly say that I haven't felt the "oh I'd go to the other end of the world, give you all the stars and die for you" kind of love. The kind where you give yourself to the other person 100%, don't hold back and just trust with your whole life on the other person.

I'm probably one of the most romantic people there are in the world and I might have maybe a bit too high expectations when it comes to love. No I'm not the crazy type who expects to be showered with gifts, serenades, love poems (although those are nice) and romantic meals all the time. I do have my feet on the ground. I know that the type of things that happen in movies are not real life, but sometimes I do wish something like that would happen to me. To be swept off my feet...I wanna feel that feeling. To be utterly and compelety in love. Who's to say that things can't happen in real life the way they are in movies? What is stopping us from doing things sometimes like in the movies? Just couse it's not real life, doesn't mean that we shouldn't try (atleast sometimes)...I know I'm gonna stay in my goofy romantic ways for the rest of my life. It's part of me, it is who I am...runs in my veins. And I'm probably gonna end up being the romantic one in the relationship..but hey it's ok cause I love giving as much as recieving. Making the other person happy. All though if I never got anything romantic back I'd probably "die", hahah yeha sounding like a romantic looney right now.

I do think about love quite often actually. Probably couse I feel the need for it all the time. Ponder it, and think of the different ways there are to love someone. It's the one thing that keeps this world running and not dying completely. Think about it. We'd probably all be dead without love. Couse with love comes kindness, caring for each other, protection and valuing peoples lifes. Without it I say we'd just end up killing each other.

Look at me trying to sound so smart, stating things that are already pretty much given facts in this life hahah

Love is the only sane and satisfactory answer to the problem of human existence. ~Eric Fromm

Amen to that as well!

Anyways here are some more wedding pics from this summer.

Hope you enjoy them!

Love,

PaperHeart

P.s. Remember to tell people you love how you really feel about them! Life's too short!

Time for a cheesy love song. I actually happen to love this song couse it helds so many memories. Enjoy if you can! ;D

"Inside my mind..."

Boredom...this is what boredom does to you...you sit home alone, ideas come to your head but there's no models around...so what do you do? you start taking photos of yourself. And don't even use the ideas you had in your head...HOW selfcentered am I?

anyways I don't think I have any bright things to say today. Even though I have been alone with my thoughts all day.

Ugh, I need to get this life of mine in a roll...If anybody has any links or news for me about photography schools/classes in England and in Denmark then let me know (especially in Denmark since I can't seem to find any from there...international that is...I don't speak Danish) Why Denmark, you ask? couse we've been planing to move abroad with my sister together and she really wants to go to Denmark...so yeah...I don't have anything against it if I find a photography school in Englaish from there. If not England is still very dear to me and I do wanna go there...I'm just looking at all my options...

My brain is getting dumb...dumb dumbdi dumb...

yeaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhh....

"You're my one and only thrill..."

To fear is one thing. To let fear grab you by the tail and swing you around is another. ~Katherine Paterson, Jacob Have I Loved

Hey Everyone!

I was looking through my blog and I realised something...there's something missing...can you figure out what it is? I realised that I don't say much...

I mean I know that I made this blog for my photography, to show the "world" what I'm made of, (photography wise that is). But I think it might actually be time for me to share more of my thought as well. Yes I know, surprisingly enough I do have thought in this 'always-in-a-dreamland' head of mine :)

Anything I've ever done that ultimately was worthwhile... initially scared me to death. ~Betty Bender

Something has been pressing my mind lately, well not as much pressing as making me restless. I wanna move back to England (or somewhere that is out of this country) and I've been desperately trying to find some schools. I'm full of this enthusiasm for moving away and starting something new and actually getting back to school. But things don't seem to go anywhere...I feel like I'm standing still.

And you know what? I hate fear...I hate it...

For a long looong time I had issues with going to school, fear mostly...fear of failing, or doing errors, fear of giving the wrong answers and fear of being disappointed...better yet being a disappointment. Fear of letting people down...I hate letting people down. Some would say that that sounds like a perfectionist, but I'm far from that. I'm just a chicken I suppose :P

Anyways, I was probably the most thrilled person in the world when I finally, after years of struggling, finished school and started just going to work. But now the time I thought would "never" come, has come and I want to go back to school so baaaad, couse I want to move forward in photography. Be the best that I can be in it. Actually learn all the right terms for things and pick someone else's brain, someone who knows more than I do now and could help me become better...possibly to be one of the best?

Now that I've finally gotten over the fear, things are not moving forward. Oh well, I suppose I just need to be patient and keep looking...I do strangly enough have a feeling inside that things will be alright, that they will go just as they're supposed to go. My life has done that for me so far (even when it has taken a turn I wouldn't have picked out as my first choise) so it might just be possible that it will continue doing just that. So we'll see...

Well I'm sure that the fear kicks in again when I find myself going for interviews for the schools (sounds so funny that you have to be interviewd for a school, but that's how it goes)

I suppose I should just imbrace fear and be thankful for it. With fear, like with almost anything in this life, there's always two ways to go. Either we learn from it or we get crippled by it. It should be something that pushes us forward, makes us grow as humans.

If there was nothing to fear for, life would be pretty empty in my oppinion. Couse usually behind fear there is a feeling that you have something to lose in this life. Something you wanna hold on to dearly. People who say that they aren't scared of anything, that they don't have fears, scare me :D hahah

There are times when fear is good. It must keep its watchful place at the heart's controls. ~Aeschylus

well that was that...thoughts about fear today ladies and gentleman :)

As you can see there's two drawings I made this evening...well I was practising. I haven't drawn in a long looong time and you can see that I'm really rusty. never thought that that would happen, but apparently it can. So bare with me on this. Or maybe I shoukld try and bare with myself on this...I'm always too hard on myself.

Anyways, thought I'd share them with you none the less, so there they are, enjoy!

Thanks for tuning in,

Love,

PaperHeart

Obstacles are like wild animals. They are cowards but they will bluff you if they can. If they see you are afraid of them... they are liable to spring upon you; but if you look them squarely in the eye, they will slink out of sight. ~Orison Swett Marden

"fade in to you, I think it's strange you never knew..."

My photo project for today :)

They didn't quite turn out the way I had planned in my head (they never do actually) but I kind of like them none the less...

I got this idea one night in England when I was laying in my bed and just wondering stupid things like "hmm I wonder what it would feel like just to fade away...just fade to the air..." yeah I know random thoughts, but that's how I get my inspirations...I listen to music, wonder and see all these images in my head. That's how it goes...

And surprise surprise Mazzy Star's song fade into you was playing from my player at that moment :D hahah

Hope you enjoy them!

Love,

PaperHeart