PaperHeartArt

"Fill these spaces up with days..."

2011-09-25T16:10:00.000-07:00

HELLO MY DEAR FRIENDS!!!

I know it's been a looooooong time and no I really dont have that much to update at the moment, except that I'm lovin every second of this internship and there will soon be a new blog and a new webpage for meee!!! WOOOHOOOOO!!!!
Lets all have a dance party and go crazy! WOOP WOOP!!
Sooo before I have them up I Wont show you guys any of the work Ive been doing here in California...I know I know I'm sorry but I want it to be a "surprise"

Anyways, what I do wanna do now is to promote my sister and her blog and her Etsy store. Check her out:
HazyLace Etsy
HazyLace Blog

And here's a good song for you guys to listen to on this chill nice hot and beautiful Sunday afternoon. It's an old song to me, but I just ran into it recently and wanted to share it with you:

Love,
PaperHeart

"When I tried to speak your language I'm happy you laughed..."

2011-07-31T13:27:00.000-07:00

Aaaaaaaah! Finally home!
One week of partying in sweden with bunch of funny people is bliss, but at the sametime very tiering cause you do not know the word sleep during that time.
I'm gonna be home for one more day and then it's time for me to head óut to D.C. for my friends wedding and then to Cali to do my intership. Here's few wedding pics I took few months back. hope you enjoy them and if I don't have the time to update tomorrow (well actually it's already today) then I'll have to say adios for a little while and I'll update from U.S.A asap!

Love,
PaperHeart

"These are the good times in your life, so but on a smile and it will be alright..."

2011-07-19T05:39:00.000-07:00

once again I'm sorry peeps for not updating. Life is keeping me busy as always, which is wonderful, but at the sametime sucks big time.
For those of you who don't know this already, I'll be "moving" to California in a few weeks for a little while to do an internship for these lovely photographers: EPLove
So something new and exciting coming my way. I'm very grateful that they are taking me under their wing for a little while and that I get to learn from them all things I need to get my own business running. I'm doing a happy dance everyday these days, so I'm taking it as a good sign that I'm going the right way here :P

Anywhoooooo, here's more engagement photos for you to oogle at.

Love,
PaperHeart

This is my theme song for this and next week! Woop wooop ENJOY!

"Can't sleep when the sun goes down, just want to feel like we're together..."

2011-07-07T23:03:00.000-07:00

Hello my dear friends!
I had a engagement session 2 days ago and here's a little sneek peek of it.
Yup, Summer is THE BEST TIME to shoot over here...perfection!

"You know you're in love when you don't want to fall asleep because reality is finally better than your dreams."

Love,
PaperHeart

"It's their salivating lips just won't leave them to sleep..."

2011-07-01T22:25:00.000-07:00

"Cos they came out of the sunshine
Flowers nestled in their hair
See they've been stumbling on the backstreets honey
I won't give in, no I won't give in
'Cos my love's not a limit.."

Love,
PaperHeart

"I want you in my soul, I want you in my soul..."

2011-07-01T14:33:00.000-07:00

Summer in my heart, my head, my soul, my mind, in every part of my body...
Summer summer summer summer summer!!!!

Summer is inside me...

I love summer because,
-it makes me feel alive
-I'm constantly happy
-I feel energized
-there are so many heavenly scents in the air
-ICE CREAM!
-nature is at its best
-I get to do my night walks
-I dont feel cold
-I get to wear dresses
-birds sing more clearly and louder than before
-the days are looong
-there's night time only few hours and even that time is not that dark
-ICE CREAM!
- get to swim in the ocean
-I can eat outside everyday if I want to
-cabin tiiiime
-partypartyparty
-oh all the heavenly berries and fruits...mm.mm.mm
-ICE CREAM!
-every day is a good day to be wearing a bikini
-pretty pretty colors!!!
-BARBEQUE AND GRILL FOOOD!
-watermelons
-crickets singing
-sun bathing
-beach
-sauna and swimming in a lake

and this list could go on forever....

Love,
PaperHeart

"These dreams under my pillow.."

2011-05-30T10:01:00.000-07:00

"Spouse: someone who'll stand by you through all the trouble you wouldn't have had if you'd stayed single."

I just love these two...and I really REALLY hate the fact that I'm gonna miss their wedding :(
I don't like it at all...but one has to choose between two weddings sometimes...not a easy decition just so you know...

Just look at them, you can see the love the share from miles away.
I'm looking for a love like that...still looking...maybe it will show up soon or maybe it will come around when I'm old and gray, but I'm sure it will come eventually :)

"We are all a little weird and life's a little weird, and when we find someone whose weirdness is compatible with ours, we join up with them and fall in mutual weirdness and call it love."

Love,
PaperHeart

"I heard her say Can I have you Caught up on what to say I said you do.."

2011-05-29T04:54:00.000-07:00

Went to see Angus and Julia Stone on the 20th and absolutely loved it!

I want to have beautiful Ausralian babies with lovely Australian accents and gorgeous dark eyes and curly hair with Angus Stone. I mean mmmhmm, that man makes my heart sing :D haha

btw that guy in this pic is not Angus, that's the warm up dude...can't remember his name anymore but he was sooo good!!

Julia, she is gorgeous and has so much stage carisma it's mezmerising. She flirts with the audiance constantly and knows how to make you laugh while she sings, while Angus is this calm and chilled guy on the background letting her shine, but still not losing your attention. They were both so down to earth and you felt like you were listening to your friends jam in their living room.
I just love this dynamic duo, they pulled me in to this lovely world of peace and yes, I dare say serenity for couple of hours where I completely forgot reality. I love gigs like that!

I want to see them again!!!
That was that for today, if you have the time please do listen to their much (I've posted their music before)

Love,
PaperHeart

"I got chills, they're multiplying..."

2011-05-25T01:18:00.000-07:00

More to come...

Love,
PaperHeart

"Let your heart go where the wind takes it Pure like the raindrops of time..."

2011-05-24T14:43:00.000-07:00

"What you need to know about the past is that no matter what has happened, it has all worked together to bring you to this very moment. And this is the moment you can choose to make everything new. Right now."

...And that is why I still went back to my past and cut my heair back the way it was...

Love,

PaperHeart

While we have oceans
Rivers that still bring us life
Reasons to live in the moment
Hold onto your time

Let your heart go where the wind takes it
Pure like the raindrops of time
Follow the path where it takes you
Straight down the line

Ladies and Gentlemen
Surely we're here in mind
Watching our spirits dance on the
On the backs of our lives

How can one sit back and dream it
I'd have no peace in my life
Climbing these walls in an hourglass
Prized in our strife

And I have seen worlds filled with wonder
Lost on my own lonely mile

"Night air has the strangest flavor..."

2011-05-23T14:34:00.000-07:00

Still just a little preview of the engagement photos...

"You can give without loving, but you can never love without giving."

Love,
PaperHeart

"As much as I've tried to clarify, Love's quite simple, he's just my guy..."

2011-05-11T13:02:00.000-07:00

This is one of the photos that I took last week while I was photographing some engagement photos and for some reason it became my favourite. I don't know why, it just is. The mood, the colors, the light, the touch...it's just perfect. So that's a little sneek peek of what's to come :)

What's your definition of it?
How does it make you feel?
Tell me what you say that truly makes it real
Kings and Queens, Philosophers have tried so hard to find
Tell me what it means to you dear, nevermind

Love is kind when the world is cold
Love stays strong when the fight gets old
Love's a shoulder to lean on
Love is you
Love's like the water when the well runs dry
Quench my thirst, keep me alive
Just need one sip baby
Love is you
Love is you, love is you,
Love is you, love is you

Is it possible, there is a kiss that's so divine
Or am I just a fool, is it all in my mind?
Is there something chemical
A scientist might say
Well love must be a drug
To make me feel this way

Cause love's my permission to be who I am
No inhibitions cause you understand
Freedom to breathe oh baby
Love is you
Love's like a kiss when the sun goes down
Holds me tight when no one's around
Love's what I want to hold on to
Love is you

Love is you, Love is you, Love is you,
Love is you, Love is you,
Love is you, Love is you,

Love is kind, it makes me stronger
I don't have to look no longer
You're the one I cling to
Love is you
When the chips are down
Love will stick around
I'm so glad I found
Love is you

As much as I've tried to clarify
Love's quite simple, he's just my guy
Perfect definition
Love is you
Love is you, love is you
Love is you... is you...

"You're not alone in anything You're not alone in trying ..."

2011-05-10T15:25:00.000-07:00

It's been a while yet again. I've been going through some new wedding photos and trying to sort them as well as some engagement photos, while at the sametime trying to sort though my own life aaaand projects I have in my head...

So I've been keeping busy once again, but that's not to say that I haven't enjoyed some quality free time laying on the grass in the sun, sleeping outside and taking it all in.
SUMMER IS ALMOST HERE! and I can't seem to keep myself from smiling :D Sun has that effect on me :) I can't wait to be bale to put on some dresses and skirts (well I've already been wearing those) and go out with my legs showing hahah...
Oh and guess what...
I bought myself pink trousers...YES, PINK! I HATE PINK! :D hahaha I was supposed to buy myself red ones, but instead surprised myself and ended up going for the pink (well it's actually corallishpinkish) I guess the girly girly super girl girl inside of me won after all these years. I would have NEVER EVER thought that this day would come, that I'd buy something pink...well that just goes to show that life is always unpredictable and surprises you when you least expect it to :)

Anywayyyyyyys, here are some photos of my lovely little muffin! my niece, my gorgeous little niece who just melts your heart right away. I hadn't seen her in a long time and she has grown so much. She has this gorgeous reddish curly hair and a face that makes the most funniest expressions ever...and she keeps saying "titta titta!" (which is swedish and means "look look!") I 'just love that girl soooo much! (and her brother who wouldn't let me take photos of him)
I miss them so much and hate the fact that I dont see them that often anymore (they moved to another city)

ooooh, and Rome was great, thaks for asking :D hahah I will post some photos from that trip as well :)

Ok now I really need to go to bed.

Hope you enjoy these!
Love,
PaperHeart

"Here comes that familiar feelin, that fridays famous for ..."

2011-04-22T05:24:00.000-07:00

Look LOOK! who we found with my friend in the midst of our eggs...

It's Mr easter egg and he is here to say...

HAPPY EASTER EVERYONE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Me, I'll be away for the next week, heading to Rome for a little holiday and hopefully after I return, I will have ton of photos to share with you guys! hihihihihiiii I'm sooo excited!

Lots of easterly love to you all!
PaperHeart

This dude gives me the summer vibes!!!

"I send you my words from the corners of my room..."

2011-04-18T14:42:00.000-07:00

There's a knot at the back of my head...

...it will not solve itself, it refuses to listen to reason...

..."this is a mess that you can not clear on your own..." it says "...you can not untangle a knot like this that was meant for two..."
yet still I try...

...and that knot, that heavy knot at the back of my head just grows and grows. I know it's a battle I can not win, my hands are too small for something like this. There's only so much they can do on their own. It's clear to me that I need two bigger hands to solve all the mysteries and questions it has gathered in its grip.
To help me one mess at a time, to clear my mind.

...There's a knot at the back of my head, it will not solve itself, it refuses to listen to reason...

Love,
PaperHeart

"Can't stop smiling just want to hold on tight I know that must be love no doubt ..."

2011-04-10T13:56:00.000-07:00

I love being cheesilly in love and being in love in public places.
Some people think it's annoying, I think it's cute and makes you see that the world isn't such a bad place after all. I think we should show how much we love eatch other more often. Granted there is a fine line with what is taking it too far and what is still thought as appropriate. But I would like to see it more often none the less...no wait I would love to do that more often myself, but since there's no man in my life, I'll have to do with taking pictures of other people.

I was riding the metro with these two love birds and just found them so adorable that I had to be an annoying paparazzi and take photos of their private moments.

So what did we learn from this blabing on I just did there about love once again. That we should share the L.O.V.E...just a simple holding of a hand or a small kiss on the cheek, will make this world a better place to be in...atleast that's what I think!

Love,
PaperHeart

p.s. I just absolutely LOOOVE this song!

Shouldn't tell you all I got inside but I just need to let it out
Let me say it if you don't mind
It's only you, I think about

Whoa whoa when I see you
Can't stop smiling just want to hold on tight
I know that must be love no doubt
That must be love no doubt

I can't sleep when all is spinnin round
I need to figure out how this can be so hard for me when it shouldn't be
Can't get you off my mind
It's only you I think about

If you ever would be mine, I will never ever let you down
If you ever would be mine
If you ever would be mine, I will never ever let you down
If you ever would be mine
If you ever would be mine, I will never ever let you down
If you ever would be mine
If you ever would be mine, I will never ever let you down
If you ever would be mine

I can't sleep when all is spinnin round
I need to figure out how this can be so hard for me when it shouldn't be
Can't get you off my mind
It's only you I think about

"It was planned from the beginning and the plan was carried through..."

2011-04-08T15:25:00.000-07:00

I doodled today...I love doodling...I wish everything else would come as easy to my life as doodling...I even love the word doodle...dododododododododddddooooodle! sounds funny, feels funny in your mouth...
...
...

ok yeah it's time to go to bed...
...
Wedding to shoot tomorrow...
stupid weather...
making my life harder....
....
GRRRRRRRRRRR!!!
...
ok...
nighty night!

Love,
PaperHeart

"and the softest sigh when I’m empty..."

2011-03-24T12:20:00.000-07:00

Today I kindly went to the city to meet up with my friends, to do something lovely for us human beings...but instead of that this is all I got...

...yes ladies and gentleman that's all you get when your hemoglobin is too low and you try to donate blood. It doesn't matter how badly you want to do it and wish and hope and the nurse tries and tries to take it over again from your other finger as well, it wont go up :/
I was sooo looking forward to it. I try to donate every 3 months (cause that's as often as women can do it) and my hemoglobine has always been superb (yes I use fancy words like 'superb' every now and then :P) and I've never had this problem before, but the nurse said that since I had been to the gym right before this and had been drinking a lot of water that it could have lovered my hemoglobine.
Damn you gym!

...ah well, next time in June then...poo!

Love,
PaperHeart

And it’s the darkest side of my heart that dies when you come to me,
And it’s the golden ticket I win when you kill my enemies,
I hear the father’s cry and the softest sigh when I’m empty,
But if you leave me I’ll get me gone and drowned face down muddy in the water.

"They could grow wings and fly like birds..."

2011-03-18T07:47:00.000-07:00

Better to be up (in the sky) than down...

Like I've said before, I loooove looking at the sky (I could do it for hours and hours) and taking pictures of it and I have TON of pictures like these, so I'll be posting sky pictures every now and then...there yah go...

Love,
PaperHeart

Two songs I looove...

"I’ve been searching, for a couple words.
They could grow wings and fly like birds,
course i know it sounds absurd
but when you’re in love, all the lines get blurred..."

"Take our time See the signs On the road to somewhere..."

2011-03-10T13:38:00.000-08:00

This photo was taken around january 2010. We went sledding with my friends and as usual I had my camera with me...and this is something I took "accidentally"

I know I know, I've been posting the most random photos lately, none of them have been a project I've had in mind or anything planned..but people, I photograph a LOT and when I say alot, I really mean it. Most of those photos just pile up in my computer and never see "the daylight". So lately I've been going through my photo folders, trying to find beautiful/look worthy photos that I haven'te really noticed before or have forgotten about. Just pictures ans moments from average life. So bare with me and atleast try to enjoy them and find the same beauty that I see.

Love,
PaperHeart

Haven't listened to Goldfrapp in a looong looong time. Like REALLY listened, concentraded on it, you knooooow what I mean. So I was so glad when I started to listen to goldfrapp cd's that I have and "found her" again, if you could say that...

"I had nothing to spend but time on you ..."

2011-03-09T08:57:00.000-08:00

What exactly did I do last weekend?

Saw the National (alone) and died in extasy...

Had a sucky camera with me on that gig, not my own baby :/, but I tried my best...

I'm still in awe of the whole concert, just AH!

Then the next day I travelled to another city with my friends and saw my brother do the "impossible" by eating the biggest meal there was, getting his name on the wall and throw up afterwards...

While the rest of us enjoyed our "small" meals...

He said, and I quote "no problem, this is a small meal, no problem, I can do it..."
Yeah dude, it looks small but you didnt know what you got yourself in, did you?

The ever so fearless tigers at our table :D hahah

So yeah I've been a busy bee once again after a fun weekend of random stuff I need to concentrade on preassignments for the finnish art school yet again. I did how ever manage to get myself in to a school in England, woop woop!! I feel so releaved and yet VERY paniced! money money moneyyyyy!! is the name of the problem...School aint free over there like it is over here, PLUS I need to travel to the states as well...Me is not made out of money, no matter how much me wants it....Any ideas how I could start pooping money?

Aint it funny, that we spend our lives mostly wishing for something new, something exciting, something to change our lives, perhaps (like in my case) wish and hope to be able to move away to another country, we wish and hope and pray and when that moment actually comes, all of a sudden we see all the good things we already have that we might have to give up for that something new. You start to see all the good things there are in your country (however bland and boring it is) and start to hesitate, is this what I really want? why did I wanna change this?
Don't get me wrong, I want this, I need to do this for my own mental healths sake and to be actually able to FINALLY be the person that I want to be, to have the career I've always wanted. To see how far I can go with this...but still, we all get that feeling at some point when our lives are about to change, don't we?

Love,
PaperHeart

Two songs that gave me the chills on that gig, first, The National - wasps nest:

second (warm up band), Sharon van etten - Love More:

Then lyrics that inspire me at the moment:

"Don't wait to take what's there

And then make it what you want

All that you need to have

Is right there inside your heart

No need to look around

When you could be lookin' in

You say you'll find

You will find it "

"Seek out the light between Time and confusion glowing up ahead..."

2011-03-03T09:03:00.000-08:00

"...Take your medicine and crawl before you walk
Think it through before you open your mouth to talk
Be an advocate of joy
Find your little heart's desire and

Follow it...

...Don't be afraid, this is your year
It's gonna be alright, you're a performer
Just take your time, but not too much time..."

Love,
PaperHeart

"I'm the only friend you'll need to know? Give me all your troubles, let them go..."

2011-03-02T13:12:00.000-08:00

Little sparkling light on her face...

Now I know I know, everyone uses the polaroid efect now a days and it aint that original, but I cant help it! Me likes it very muchooo and I thought it fit well with what I was going for in these photos.
I love lazy mornings, I love setting and rising sun, I love my sister, I love her pretty pretty pretty face, I love taking photos of her messing around and I love the fact that she's the most natural model for my photos. Alhough I am looking for new faces, got to find some pretty models for my next projects.

I guess she was going for the "uh I'm so cool" look...not sure if she got it :P hahah

I just love that huge shirt on her (borrowed from her husband of course) and how it hid even her fingertips...

Yes, we went to the freezing cold as well and yes she was such a sweetheart for doing this for me!

mmmm, I suppose that was that for today...
I think I might go to bed now, new day tomorrow and new moments ahead!

Love,
PaperHeart

Music that inspired me today...

"...You've got nothing to lose
They took it all while you looked away
I know you paid your dues
Do you need somewhere to stay

I could out your every wrong to right
I will be your sanctuary tonight
Crossover and come inside
Crossover and come inside
I'm the only friend you'll need to know?
Give me all your troubles, let them go..."

"I was following the pack, All swallowed in their coats ..."

2011-03-01T13:23:00.000-08:00

Winter is getting (almost) unbearable for me. I was sick for a week last week and I still have a runny nose and a cough that just won't leave me alone.
Eh well, summer will come eventually and atleast it is pretty outside (although that doesn't help much when it's -20c and you don't dare to go out)
I know I've said this million times before and will probably say it million times more, but I was NOT made for this weather. I'm a summer child! Me and summer, we're best buddies and we couldn't imagine living without each other. For pete's sake you can even hear summer in my name (kind of...) I like things warm, hot even, I love the scent of sun and hot sand on your skin, to be honest I don't think there's any scent that I wouldn't like that the summer brings. Ah to feel the heath, to swim first all day long and then all evening long and maybe all night long as well and to run around in the rain and then smell the air after rain and and and and...I could go on for ever, but it's no use. Winter is STILL here and it doesnt seem to be going anywhere from here in a loooong time :/
Anyhooooooow, more photos, this time surprise surprise they are wintery.

Love,
PaperHeart

"...I was following the pack,
All swallowed in their coats
With scarves of red tied 'round their throats
To keep their little heads
From fallin' in the snow ..."

"and if I should come to be relieved, would it be without you..."

2011-02-28T10:47:00.000-08:00

This song sounds like me at the moment, the lyrics fit so well. I have some kind of talent with this. I'm serious, I always manage to find a song that has lyrics that fit my life or that day or that minute and what I'm feeling, perfectly. And I dont even try to find somehting that fits me, I just put my playlist on and randomly pick stuff and they always seem to be songs that sound like what I'm going through. I'm a lyric nutter if you didn't know that already, lyrics always bring that extra to the music:

"she feels she needs to leave

when the fields are all covered in frost

and the dreams begin to breathe

opening the partly open locks ..."

"...she feels she needs to leave

to avoid a messy aftermath

alone between lines of anguished needs

rearranged to allow a newborn path"

Love,
PaperHeart

2011-02-28T07:05:00.001-08:00

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"So I can love you love you boy..."

2011-02-27T08:41:00.000-08:00

These photos I've taken over the last year from here and there and they area visual aid for the things that are on my mind at the moment...moving, flying away, sky, new place, new opportunities, running, free, dreams, living your dreams, decitions, life changing moments, taking the step, high, excited, happy, over the moon, warmth, strangers, love, hate, leap of faith, windows, scary, money, money, money, MONEY=worry...

Love,
PaperHeart

"It's more than a dream, I wanna live in my dream..."

2011-02-24T13:01:00.000-08:00

"I would be you, you would be me, we would be one, we would be fine...
That's my dream world, that's my dream world, it's more than a dream. I wanna live in my dream..."

"Gotta find the light to guide me along, Gotta find a way back home..."

2011-02-24T08:53:00.000-08:00

I had a date with my friends sun and light today. We haven't played like this together in a looong time and I dare say I miss Mrs. Summer who usually tags along with them. Mr Winter has been around a bit too long, making us freeze and get the flu, so we left him outside on his own this time. Thank goodness we found things inside to play around with. Sun was having so much fun going through all the objects I placed on the table and as usual I tried my best to capture the colours light made me see.

So here's what I managed to get on my camera before light and summer hid away...

Light gives of itself freely, filling all available space. It does not seek anything in return; it asks not whether you are friend or foe. It gives of itself and is not thereby diminished.

Love,
PaperHeart

"Gotta find a way to get home strong

Gotta find a way back home.

Gotta find the light to guide me along

Gotta find a way back home.

Running for your life won't get you so far

Running for your life so far

The loving in your eye that holds you alive

Gotta find a way back home"

"I'm in here can anybody see me?..."

2011-01-24T05:06:00.000-08:00

'Unfinished girl' 2010

This is a drawing I made like 6 months ago or so. I was supposed to finish it, but decided that I liked her this way better :)
Hope you guys like it,
Love,
PaperHeart

"Can't you hear my call?
Are you coming to get me now?
I've been waiting for,
you to come rescue me,
I need you to hold,
all of the sadness I can not,
living inside of me..."

"only the young can break away break away..."

2011-01-18T08:54:00.000-08:00

"and when you sense a faint potentiality for happiness after such dark times you must grab onto the ankles of that happiness and not let go until it drags you face-first out of the dirt-this is not selfishness, but obligation. You were given life; it is your duty to find something beautiful within life no matter how slight."

Love,
PaperHeart

"Like a map with no ocean..."

2010-12-08T14:29:00.000-08:00

Sorry don't have that much to say these day...what with school aplications (once again) and work keeping this missy REALLY BUSY!
But I do wan't to update pictures for you guys...
So there...something new again!

Love,
PaperHeart

"There's a limit to your love...like a map with no ocean..."

"Baby lay your head where we begin and end..."

2010-12-07T11:10:00.000-08:00

You must have been warned against letting the golden hours slip by; but some of them are golden only because we let them slip by. ~James Matthew Barrie

Love,
PaperHeart

"it's gonna take a lotta love Or we won't work out right..."

2010-11-04T15:52:00.000-07:00

It's actually time for me to go to bed,
but inspiration always strikes at 11pm and seems to go till 3am with me (well right now it's "only" 1 am so I'm pretty early with my bed time)...what's up with that?
Anywayyyys, these are all photos I took yesterday of my friends lovely, little, adoable, heart melting baby girl. Once again JUST few...rest will come when they come.
Ok..I really should go to bed I just fell a sleep while writing this...not good, not good at all.

"It's gonna take a lotta love
To change the way things are
It's gonna take a lotta love
Or we won't get too far
So if you're looking my direction
And we don't see eye to eye
My heart needs protection
And so do I"

"Making the decision to have a child is momentous. It is to decide forever to have your heart go walking around outside your body. "

Yeah I'm going to bed...I'll update more tomorrow...

Love,
PaperHeart

"You and I just cant say goodbye Every time we do, well Its just another lie..."

2010-10-27T10:24:00.000-07:00

Heyheyheyyy!
Yes I'm back from my trip (well came back 2 weeks ago)
LOOOVED every part of the trip (except that one day when I had to stand outside in the cold for 2 hours just cause I was standing at the wrong bus stop...and even that wasn't "too" bad in the end when cute guys kept stopping by and talking to me and asking to come on over hahah) I took quite a lot of pictures on that trip and still haven't gone thought them. Main point though is that I enjoyed my life in the states VERY much...maybe bit too much. So much that it made me wanna move there. Aaaargh! why can't I be the type of person who's just happy where she is? Why do I always wanna move around and go here and there and experience different cultures and just see everything!
Oh well...
Anyways...Here's fall inspired pictures I took before I left.

"Bittersweet October. The mellow, messy, leaf-kicking, perfect pause between the opposing miseries of summer and winter."

"You were given life; it's your duty (and also your entitlement as a human

being) to find something beautiful within life, no matter how slight."

And of course music yet again!
Something chill and interesting:

Then a song that I got from my friend and I'm utterly in love with:

And now I'm gonna sound cheesy but...
remember to enjoy life people!
Love,
PaperHeart

"It's hard to except yourself as someone you don't desire..."

2010-09-26T12:38:00.000-07:00

Took this yesterday, it's part of a project I have in mind again :D hahah
Just need few models more, but I think that this project will be held for the next few weeks since I'm going to fly fly far away to a land called USA and I'll be there for few weeks.
So bare with me tille then!

Love,
PaperHeart

"All things grow, all things grow..."

2010-09-24T08:00:00.000-07:00

Something that I "doodled" today with my 0.20mm and 0.20mm permanent markers.

I felt like I needed to draw.
I've had a break with that again and I should never EVER loose it.
I could feel that I was rusty and that's not a good thing. Never ever let the things you're good at or enjoy the most in this life get forgotten. Cause if you forget the things you love, the things you enjoy and the things that brighten your life, then what are you left with? The boring same old same old days...always remember to practise and work on the things you're not so talented with as well as with the ones that you are.
Never assume that you're good at something!

Love,
PaperHeart

"You give but little when you give of your possessions. It is when you give of yourself that you truly give. "

"keeping me calm like you do, I love you, I love you..."

2010-09-20T16:02:00.000-07:00

More of these...yeah...

...Nothing else to update here...

...Enjoy, I suppose...

...

...naanaanananaaa...

Got to love the guys here, fighting for their chance to get married :P haha

That's it. See yah later!
Love,
PaperHeart

"I'll be here, I'll be around..."

2010-09-09T10:08:00.000-07:00

cucuber

This is why I adore our yard...
even though it's fall, or should I say especially now that it's fall...
and even though I hate the cold (today was pretty warm though)
our yard always ALWAYS surprises me and cheers me up...yummy yummy!

me trying to be so natural hahah

tomatos

It's just abrolutely gorgeous to walk around there...

applesapplesapples!

PLUMS! my favourites!

Artist I now LOOOOVE thanks to my lovely sister Meri! <3 I owe you for this! ;)

"i want to love you with my heart..."

2010-09-05T23:43:00.000-07:00

After quite a lot of requests to see more of these photos (I was suprised and very please to hear how many people were expecting more photos, thank you for that!) I decided to post a little more! :)
and guess what...there's EVEN MORE to come :D hahah
Hope you enjoy these love birds working their magic infront of the camera!

Love,
PaperHeart

"...and all of this life
moves around you
for all that you claim
your standing still,
you are moving too
you are moving too
you are moving too
i will move with you."

"All these people drinking lover's spit..."

2010-08-29T16:55:00.000-07:00

heyheyheyyyy!!
Again long time no see!!
I've been busy ONCE again...and once more with weddings. My older sister got married about a week a go and let me tell you it was a G.O.R.G.E.O.U.S wedding (if I may say so myself :P hahah) and the happy couple was stunning! easy to get beautiful photos of.
Ah you could just taste the love in that wedding! the mood was just right!
I'm so happy that it went well. We've been stressing about it for months now (mysis ter bit more maybe than I, being the bride and all, but the stress and pressure were on me as well all the time) I'm so happy and at the sametime a bit sad that it's all over. I just love weddings. There's nothing better than to celebrate someones love...why do I feel like I've said this before? oh well...it's still as true as it was the first time I said it :P

So here's a little preview on that wedding. Still need to show these to my sister befre I can post more. She's on her honeymoon at the moment, so I really have to wait...
But I hope you enjoy these little memories before I can show you guys more.
Anyways, time for me to go to bed!
remember to always love people, always looooove! (yes I know, I sounds like a freaking hippie...)

Love,
PaperHeart

"I came in this way and here now I'll stay..."

2010-07-12T16:55:00.000-07:00

Like I said, the summer time is here...
aaaand...
I've been to the beach this weekend almost everyday all day just swimming and sleeping and having good time with friends...just letting the vitamin D soak in and let me tell you, there's nothing like it. I HATE WINTER! I seriously HATE IT! I was made for a warm hot country and instead of ended in a land where there's summer only for a couple of months and the rest of the year you have to live in perfect darkness.
Don't get me wrong, there are some good things about winter and I love Christmas and new year, but when there's sun this much only 2 months in a year, you sort of start to hate the rest of the year. Atleast that's what I think.

Soo...anyways, I took some pictures this weekend at the beach and since they havea lovely summer wibe in them, I thought I'd share some...

Summer afternoon - summer afternoon; to me those have always been the two most beautiful words in the English language. ~Henry James

Then followed that beautiful season... Summer....
Filled was the air with a dreamy and magical light; and the landscape
Lay as if new created in all the freshness of childhood.
~Henry Wadsworth Longfellow

Love,
PaperHeart

P.s. Perfect summer jam, my sister loves this song...and since she played it quite a lot at one point, it now reminds me of summer too :)

And then a song I've been listening to quite a lot lately...don't know why...I just like it...

"In the morning I’ll make you breakfast ..."

2010-07-05T09:09:00.000-07:00

'Mornings' is the name of this selfportrait and I think it explains itself.

Each morning
Is the birth
Of a new
Opportunity.

"...In the morning I’ll make you breakfast
In the evening I’ll warm the bed
And I’ll always be happy to kiss you
Promise I’ll never get sad.."

"You took my hand, added a plan, You gave me your heart..."

2010-07-01T14:27:00.001-07:00

Summer is in the air!
Finally! it's been warm the last couple of 3-4 days and I'm loooovin it!
And what else, love is in the air! well it's sort of always there in the air, but we really see it, taste it and feel it when spring and summer are here and sort of just make it easier to see everything. Don't yah think?
Well it ain't hard for me to spot love at the moment. It's pretty easy when it's sort of rubbed on your face "all the time" with a couple of cute newly married/engaged couples in my family.
My sister always thinks that something's wrong or I'm after something, when I look at her and her fiancé being all cute and lovey dowey. It makes me smile or giggle on my own. She just doesn't get it that I actually happen to like to see her so happy :) We're really close and so it's natural that what ever makes her happy makes me happy and what makes her sad makes me sad. Clishé as it may sound, it's true. She deserves it, deserves to be happy and to have someone who loves her. We all deserve that in my own opinnion.

Why is it that when ever I write a bit more than normal in here, it has something to do with love? My endless love for love haha
Well I guess it's better than talking about hate (or like fustration last time :P)
Yup, this is defenetley the summer of love for my family I'd say...and as stressfull as it will be and it is, there's no better way to celebrate it than with a wedding! Ok I guess there's few even better ways, but no better way to celebrate it with a family :)

So the two pics there above are some engagement pics (not the best ones, but I still need the permission of the couple to post more) and the rest are my summer moments in our yard.
Mmmm can't you just feel the sun...I love it! Love everything about the sun. And I love it when it kisses your skin with a warm, gentle touch! and usually leaved a mark on everyone, except me! I'm so freakishly white all the time! Great!

Anyways, enjoy the pictures and the summer and I'll "see" you guys soon!
Love,
PaperHeart

p.s. You know my love for Sia, she's been with me for years (after falling for zero 7 when I Was like 15 years ols or so) and now, well she's made a song that just makes my heart feel full. Really gives me the goose bumps everytime...listen and relax...

My love, leave yourself behind
Beat inside me, leave you blind
My love, look what you can do
I am mending, I'll be with you

You took my hand added a plan
You gave me your heart
I asked you to dance with me

You loved honestly
Did what you could release
Aaaahhh oooh

I know you're pleased to go
I won't relieve this love

Now I am strong (Now I am strong)
You gave me all
You gave all you had and now I am home

"What did you learn?...my back is soaking from the chase..."

2010-06-11T08:41:00.000-07:00

One of the photoshoot photos I took for the stylist thingie

Frustration is a common emotional response to opposition. Related to anger and disappointment, it arises from the perceived resistance to the fulfillment of individual will. The greater the obstruction, and the greater the will, the more the frustration is likely to be. Causes of frustration may be internal or external. In people, internal frustration may arise from challenges in fulfilling personal goals and desires, instinctual drives and needs, or dealing with perceived deficiencies, such as a lack of confidence or fear of social situations. Conflict can also be an internal source of frustration; when one has competing goals that interfere with one another, it can create cognitive dissonance. External causes of frustration involve conditions outside an individual, such as a blocked road or a difficult task. While coping with frustration, some individuals may engage in passive-aggressive behavior, making it difficult to identify the original cause(s) of their frustration, as the responses are indirect. A more direct, and common response, is a propensity towards aggression.

You know what I'm feeling right now??
What? How...How did you know?
Yes, I'm feeling that very thing called frustration and let me tell you IT.SUCKS.BIG.TIME!
I'm not going anywhere...still just standing still like I'd never even tried to do anything in my life. Just going to the same job everyday, coming home to...nothing...and then doing the same thing again tomorrow. The things I've reached out for and tried to grab, have slipped though my fingers and now seem even further ahead than they ever were. Yes, frustration is the word and I couldn't have explained it better than what it says in wikipedia.
I just wish for this one dream and this one dream only (well ok It would be nice to get myself a man on the side and maybe a nice home in the future...but you know secretly we all wish for that, so it's given :P) It just has felt like lately I've gotten nothing but poo poo poo poo on me and Finland is losing its charm on my eyes again. I need a change. And I need it real bad!
Well atleast the sun is out more now than on anyother time of the year (well not today...today it's raining hehee) Sun always makes me feel better and makes me shine even though I can feel the poo running down my neck.
Yeah...so I guess I have nothing else to say today...except remember this kids,
FRUSTRATION SUCKS!

Love,
PaperHeart

A dream which is not interpreted is like a letter which is not read. ~The Talmud

"Did anything to get to that spring..."

2010-06-01T12:32:00.000-07:00

BalloonsBalloonsSummerBalloonsPrettyPinkBalloonSummerSunAhWarmSunBathingTanning
SkirtsBalloonsHotSandGrassBlueGreenBalloonsSummerSummerSummerSeaSwimmingIceCream
RollercoastersBBQLongWalksLovelyScentsLongDaysSummerSummerBalloooooons!

Yeah I've gone a bit nuts with summer and warm weather and pretty little dresses and skirts and looking really girly!
I took these photos about 2 weeks ago (more or less) for a friend who's about to become a stylist? yeah I guess you could call her that. Anyways, she asked me to do 4 different sets of photos for her portfolio. So I decided to post the firt photoshoot I did with the pretty little ballooooooons!!

Yup it was a bit windy that day...

...and she's gonna love it that I posted this photo as well ;P hahah I love it when people laugh, like REALLY laugh...this is one of those moments! :D

Hope you enjoyed these moments!
More to come

Love,
PaperHeart

p.s. Thanks for the lovely comments on the wedding photos! meant a lot to me! <3 p.p.s This is defenetly going to be one of my summer songs this year!

"Seems like all I really was doing was waiting for you..."

2010-05-30T12:18:00.000-07:00

Sooooo the wedding season has started, and what better way to start it than with my little sister's wedding photos!
Yup that gorgeous creature is my sister with her handsome new husband :)
I was a wreck at this wedding (along side with my big sister :D hahah) we had a LOT to do and so little time. We designed and drew and planned and decorated and andandandandandandnad...just did a lot!
Thank goodness for having time to take the photos though. I thought we'd never have time for them and time for my ideas. Well my original plans/ideas didn't work out to be honest, (except the ginger beer ones) but I'm still pleased with these.
After all the hastle and running around and dark coulds that threatened us, it was a beautiful wedding in the end...and we got the sun!
Soooo, here's just few of the photos, still have some to go though and I promised not to post everything, but got the green light from them to show some :)
Here you are...hope you enjoy them!

ok, so I have to explain the ginger beer photos a bit. This Mr here looo-o-oooves this drink and so I decided to dedicate few of the photos for ginger beer haha

It was so much fun walking around the city with a bride and a groome. People couldn't stop staring (except in this photo) and smiling...everyone smiled when they saw them! aaaw!

running back to the car!

"I dreamed of a wedding of elaborate elegance,
A church filled with family and friends.
I asked him what kind of a wedding he wished for,
He said one that would make me his wife."
~Author Unknown

So that's that...a little preview of a lovely couple!
Love,
PaperHeart

"...From this moment on I know
Exactly where my life will go
Seems that all I really was doing
Was waiting for love..."

"Love is like a sin my love, For the ones that feel it the most..."

2010-05-11T12:12:00.000-07:00

Heyheyheyyy!
Tests are half way through (with the first school), last day tomorrow! woop woop!
Let me tell yah, it hasn't been a picnic in the park!
My night before monday morning was horrible, kept waking up like every hour thinking I was already late. Then on monday morning as I finally woke up 30mins before I actually needed to, I went to make myself breakfast only to eat a bit of a rottened egg, the most disgusting taste ever! I felt like throwing up! weeeel, after that I got ready and we were finally off. On our way...we get LOST! we left 30min earlier than we should have and yet I got there 5mins before the test started, what a luck! Top of all the nerves and such I felt sick and throwing up because of my new medicine I eat for my skin. weeeell, I get my first assignment...the topic is ok...a bit lame, one that they seem to use everywhere. Human and nature together. Ok so I get this disposable camera and I have 3 hours. I have to stay within the grounds of the school...ok ok...I go outside aaand it's freeeeeezing! and the ground is wet and muddy. After 3 freezing hours and ruined shoes later, I went to eat. Break lasted an hour and then we got another assignment. Yes again one that I needed to shoot outside for. After 2 hours I felt my nerves going crazy cause I realized I had and interview...I hate those...buuuut I think I kind of rocked it! atleast they seemed to like me :) well on my way home, I missed my bus, had to wait for another one for an HOUR IN THE FEEEZING COLD! and to top it all at the next bus stop I ran to my bus and the driver saw me, but rove off anyways...how freaking nice is that? By that time I was hugry, cold, feeling scik, tired and maaaaaad! Yup wasn't a good day for me, but luckily there was some lovely chocolate cake waiting for me at home :)
Today we just painted and painted and drew for hours. 2 assignments for today as well...aaand we had a group assignment, where we had to be in an "photoshoot" and they checked how we reacted with other people.

Sooo...that's my update for now. Oh and there's a "new" photo...not sure if I like it or not...It needs something...somehting more...once I figure it out I'll shoot it again!
But there it is anyways!
Ok now I need to go to bed, last test day tomorrow!
Nighty night!
Love,
PaperHeart

"...It's unfortunate that when we feel a storm
we can roll ourselves over 'cause we're uncomfortable..."

"It might have been a while Since you've been loved..."

2010-05-05T02:27:00.000-07:00

Well EXCELLENT morning to everyone on this fine beautiful sunny warmish day!
I feel quite happy today for some reason. I'm guessing it's the weather and the fact that sun is shining today. Although yesterday was horrible, raining raining and raining and I thought it wound ruin my day, BUT I was wrong cause I still go to do all the things I planned and then some.
Speacing of then somes, this is the then some I did :) I was bored at home and decided to see how my idea would turn out in reality. And I was not supposed to use myself as a model...but eh, when your bored your bored and when you have no one else around you yourself are the next best thing I guess. Funny how when ever I havea photo of myself it's usually out of boredom :D hahah
Soooo...I "glued" some hearts on my lips, posed infront of the camera, photoshopped a bit more than usual...and vóla!
I do like it how my lips look very juicy...like those hearts were smushy candy. Don't you think?
Oh and I just had to add those creepy eyes. Reminds me of husky dogs. (or what ever they are called) And yes I am really pale and white in real life...but not THIS pale :P
Anyways, that's it for today!
Enjoy if you can!
and most defenetly try to enjoy the day no matter what the weather is like! :)

You can't depend on your eyes when your imagination is out of focus. ~Mark Twain

Love,
PaperHeart

P.s. as usual, I LOVE THIS SONG! and the LYRICS!

"It might have been a while
Since you've been loved
Like you should be loved

It might have been a while
Since you've been kissed
Like you should be kissed

In tender loving arms
Might be something you miss

Well summerbreeze is blowing through your window
And summerbreeze is blowing through your hair
And something in your eyes that you cannot disguise
Don't tell me it ain't there

It might have been a while
Since you've been loved
By one who really loves you

It might have been a while
Since you could trust
That someone really cares

When people like us
Meant to go 'round in pairs

Summerbreeze is blowing through your window
And summerbreeze is blowing through your hair
Something in your eyes that took me by surprise
Don't tell me that it ain't there"

"maybe I was born to hold you in these arms..."

2010-04-25T11:21:00.001-07:00

Baby tiiiime!
This is the new little princess to enter our family. Such cute little girl!
I took these pictures a while ago at her little 'nameparty' or what ever it is called.
they're just some moment captured and nothing earth shatering but cute none the less.
Hope you like them.

When ever I see her I just wanna kiss her all over that cute little face!

While we try to teach our children all about life,
Our children teach us what life is all about.
~Angela Schwindt

Yeah this last picture didn't really turn out the way it was supposed to...babies are really hard to take pictures of. Seriously! She kept moving all the time and pee'd on the blanket...twice? hahah
Well that's the best I got. Better luck next time I guess.

aaaaand more musiiiic!

Maaan I just love this song. Listen to the lyrics!

"...there's a voice singing loudly on the radio just for you
and good fortune will find him in the end
maybe i was born to hold you in these arms..."

Love,
PaperHeart

"The heart is a rebel, Make me see..."

2010-04-22T09:39:00.000-07:00

Heyheyheyyyyyyy!
I'm back!
School applications have been sent and I'm FREEE!! well almost free, there's always work to be done to earn some money. But other than that I just need to wait for replies now from the schools to tell me if I have or have not been approved for the tests...yup just for the tests. If I pass the tests, THEN just then I might get into a school. Tricky tricky, I know...so fingers crossed people!
I did actually get a reply from the first school I signed for and they asked me to come for the tests. So now I'm signed for 3 day art tests from May 10th to 12th...scaaaryyyyy!!
Oh well, I'll try my best and that's all I can do really. If I get in I get in and GREAT! if I don't well...then they don't know what they're talking about :P hahah No but seriously, I'm trying not to get my hopes up. And I'm actually kind of annoyed with myself for telling people that I'm applying for the schools, cause I'm gonna hate it so much if I don't get in and then I'll have to explain to everyone...iiiiishk!

I'm not brave enough to show you guys just yet what kind of photos I send to these schools. Some of the assignments were pretty easy but some very quite hard. So I'm just gonna show you some random pics I took inbetween the assignments when I was practising.
These are some flowerpower pictures I took of this GORGEOUS dead flower we had in our kitchen. Yes it used to be alive but had dred up and as I was about to trow it out, I noticed how it had kept its beautiful color. So naturally I had to capture the beauty...well atleast try to do it. Just beautiful reds and pinks!

Had the price of looking been blindness, I would have looked. ~Ralph Ellison

So hope you enjoed these and I'll be back asap with new pictures again!
Thanks for staying tuned in!
Love,
PaperHeart

p.s. More lovely music as always...
hopefully I'll be seeing this artist this summer!

...and then another artist I like:

"...The heart is a rebel
Make me see
I'm waiting for the wild
The heart is a rebel
Stay with me
I'm waiting for the wild

Nite after nite i open my eyes
Read between the silver lines, the end

Baby let's pretend it won't be always so hard
Somewhere along the end we'll be back at the start
It will be easier
It will be easier..."

"That the sweetest of words have the bitterest taste..."

2010-03-04T15:04:00.001-08:00

I'm really sorry everyone for not updating :/
I'm really busy at the moment and don't have anything new that I could show you guys. I have new stuff yeah, but I can't show them yet cause they are for my school applications :/
Try to hang in there...as if you're really holding your breath and waiting for me to post anything :P hahah...
but in the mean while I have these photos from the best gig EVER!
I went to see one of my fav bands of all time yesterday, and let me tell you I got goose bumps and it blew my mind! I LOVE FLORENCE+THE MACHINE! <3 It was worth waiting for! When I first started to dig and listen to their music in England, I didn't think I'd "fall" for them this hard :D hahah never been a fan type :) Seriously I'm telling you I've gone crazy! :D
But I AM A STUPID PERSON AS WELL! I was so stupid in fact that I didn't take my own camera to the gig and let me tell you how sorry I felt at the gig! I felt like crying! I was so close to the stage and had THE BEST place to take photos! but NO, I took my sister's cam with me that kept dying on me and it really doesn't give good quality...I guess I just should be glad that I had a cam with me and got some descent pictures.

Oh well...at least it was a good gig and something I will remember forever!
oh and I think that the pic at the middle actually is a good photo..for some reason I like it and how it turned out :D hahah

and here one song from them..it's my fav at the moment. I just love the lyrics!
Enjoy!

Love,
PaperHeart

p.s I just love the lyrics so much that I have to post a part of it:
"There is love in your body but you can't hold it in
It pours from your eyes and spills from your skin
Tenderest touch leaves the darkest of marks
And the kindest of kisses break the hardest of hearts

The hardest of hearts
The hardest of hearts
The hardest of hearts

There is love in your body but you can't get it out
It gets stuck in your head, won't come out of your mouth
Sticks to your tongue and shows on your face
That the sweetest of words have the bitterest taste

Darling heart, I loved you from the start
But you'll never know what a fool I've been
Darling heart, I loved you from the start
But that's no excuse for the state I'm in

The hardest of hearts
The hardest of hearts
The hardest of hearts

There is love in our bodies and it holds us together
But pulls us apart when we're holding each other
We all want something to hold in the night
We don't care if it hurts or we're holding too tight..."

"May this night keep you here 'Til tomorrow..."

2010-02-15T03:12:00.000-08:00

BAAAAAAA!!
I'm SICK! not nice...oh well...
flu and this freaking cold (but pretty) weather got me thinking about summer and how much I miss it...so I went through some old photos and decided to post few pics from last summer and few years back.
Nothing special, just few pictures which made me crave for summer, warm weather and lovely dresses...
Hope these warm you up a bit on these cold days...

To see the Summer Sky
Is Poetry, though never in a Book it lie -
True Poems flee.
~Emily Dickinson

In winter I get up at night
And dress by yellow candle-light.
In summer quite the other way
I have to go to bed by day.
~Robert Louis Stevenson

A life without love is like a year without summer. ~Swedish Proverb

Love,
PaperHeart

p.s. another song I love...sooo relaxing!

"time is a deceiver you think you own and it turns away. Fast, oh so fast it burns like a comet that crashes..."

2010-02-08T12:04:00.000-08:00

If things go wrong, don't go with them. ~Roger Babson

Well hellooooooooooooooooooooooooo!

Some more RedLady pictures...this time I was the one posing for the pictures.
Don't know what to really say except that I was really freezing my a** off there :D hahah
and I still have a thing for reeeeeeeeeeeeeeeed!

Oh and you'll be happy to hear...or not...that I'll be applying for photography schools now. Need to do a lot of prework for those schools and I have to go to work as well (I've been swamped with that lately :S), so I'll be having pretty much no time to update my blog :( BUT I'll do my best. I don't want this to die. I like my blog, even if no one would read it, it still is something for me to do and get inspired by :)
I feel like my head is going crazy with the photography assignments that I need to do...I feel so uninspired. Although I have figured out what to do with 3 of them (oh and these assignments are just for one school...I'm applying for four)
busybusybusybusy!!

Heavy thoughts bring on physical maladies; when the soul is oppressed so is the body. ~Martin Luther

Boy was he right...you can absolutely see the stress of this all on my face right now..and apparently feel the tension on my neck. Got the worst headache yesterday, I've had troubles with my shoulder for a long time, but let me tell you yesterday was horrible. I felt like throwing up because of the pain. Stress can do that to you too...
Oh well, I'll be fine...all I can do is do my best and hope for even better and then maybe, just maybe I'll get in somewhere.
If not, then I'll keep working and photographing on my own and see where that goes and apply again next year...although I do not wish that to happen.

And here's some lovely music from my beloved band called Kashmir...mmmm-mmm-mmmm...love em! I'm in loooove!
Enjoy!
and I'll be back asap!

Love,
PaperHeart

"sometimes when this place gets empty, sound of a breath fades with the light..."

2010-02-01T09:01:00.000-08:00

Yellooooooooow everyone!
It's freaking COLD HERE! (well actually today it is better) but SOOOOO beautiful outside at the sametime. We get snow like crazy every day. Cars and people have trouble moving from place to place, but we manage none the less. We are people of the north after all hahah

Here's few photos I took while I made my sister stand in the freezing cold snow in the middle of frozen sea. Her skin got blue end red but she did it none the less and after wards said something like this "you owe me BIG time..." hahah

I prefer this last photo and it is the main one...these two others are just extra.
The one at the bottom is more what I was looking/aiming for when I got this random idea in my head. If you didn't know or hadn't noticed before I've always had a thing for red, black and white. Red is just something that catches my eye straight away and makes me feel bolder somehow.
I love wearing it. But I usually wear it little bit somewhere. Like white shirt, black leggings and red shoes or red bow in my head or something like that...or better yet red lips. Muah! hahah

Every mile is two in winter. ~George Herbert

Hope you enjoyed these!
Love,
PaperHeart

"Let's not waste a minute more..."

2010-01-22T07:16:00.000-08:00

we went to this garden thingy for some of the pictures

Heyaaaaaaaaah!
Here's few pictures from a wedding I did before Christmas.
Man the nature and the time of the year was not really co-operating with us. Me trying desperately to work against the darkness with my not so fancy camera...oh well, this is the turn out (at least few of them)

I made the poor couple stand at a tram station in the freeeeeezing cold weather

after the tram station I made them stand at a "beach"...poor guys

This is one of the first pictures I took of them...I wrote the quote on a board and volá...

Yeah...this was an interesting wedding case. My first one during the winter time, without SNOW! the snow came like after a week from this. Well you've got to work with what you get I suppose :D hahah

Sunshine is delicious, rain is refreshing, wind braces us up, snow is exhilarating; there is really no such thing as bad weather, only different kinds of good weather. ~John Ruskin

Love,
PaperHeart

p.s. Loooo-o-ooove this song!

"It's dangerous to be sleeping alone..."

2010-01-21T08:19:00.000-08:00

People people people!

All you followers and visitors!
I need some help.

Since I've been asked to make a separate blog for my wedding photography, I decided to have a vote amongst you guys and see what you think.
So if you'd be so nice and vote, weather you're just randomly visiting on my page or not,
I'd love that A LOT!
Thank you!

Love,
PaperHeart

Act as if what you do makes a difference. It does. ~William James

"One of these days now you'll start dreaming of the past..."

2010-01-19T15:48:00.000-08:00

Hello everyone!

Been a while...you know first Christmas and then New years, those things keep you busy busy busy.

But I'm here now and I have some drawings to who you guys.

Made these with permanent marker and I think they turned out pretty good. The first one I made for my sister as a gift and the rest are just for fun.

I'm pretty blank in my head at the moment, it is 2 in the night after all, so I wont be writing anything special now, I just had to show you guys these and tell you that I'm still a live and have more pictures to show :)

Anyways, time for me to go to bed...

NIGHTY NIGHT!

Love,

PaperHeart

This man here is most def my fav one so far...took some time to make it

This lady was my first one of the three. I was proud of it first but now that I compare it to the one above...näääh...

P.S. Made a new layout. I like the banner but I HATE IT that I don't know how to code and all that stuff, so the rest don't do justice to it ..SUCKS! :(

"I am the wilderness locked in a cage, I am a growing force you kept in place..."

2009-11-13T12:48:00.000-08:00

Here I am,

sitting in my kitchen with my two lovely sisters. My baby sis (who's in the pictures) and my 3 years older sister (the blondie who poses in my pictures quite often)

My older sister is making brownies and my little sister is giving advise (and telling her views on things) while I write this and try to jump in the conversation every now and then and old Christmas songs play in the background. (I love multy tasking :P)

And I just have to say, I LOVE these moments...all of us 3, we're really close and we always have the most meaningful conversations together in this kitchen, while one of us bakes...and it's... just...perfect! These are the simple little moments that I live for and enjoy the most in this life. In just few minutes to few hours our relationship gets deeper and we feel more closer to each other and know what's going on in our lifes, just by baking and talking together...we might go on with our own lifes for weeks not really talking that much, but there always comes a time when we meet up in the kitchen and spill our guts.

It's funny how much things have changed in just few years and it's even funnier how much things can change in just weeks...you think that life just stands still and nothing happens...and then you meet up with your sisters in the kitchen, listen to what has happened to them and tell what has happened to yourself and realize that the world goes on all the time and you and everybody else around you keeps changing wether you want it or not...

Time is a brisk wind, for each hour it brings something new... but who can understand and measure its sharp breath, its mystery and its design? ~Paracelsus

Well here's some pictures I took of my litle siser today. Man, let me say it again, I have a beautiful family, don't I? ;)
The one at the bottom is my favourite one. I love how her mouth is relaxed and you can see her other eye peaking behind the feather...and look at that skin...she has always had the most beautiful skin ever. Simply just beautiful girl.

Love,
PaperHeart

Song I love by Oh Laura - release me

"you're no kissing queen..."

2009-10-23T03:12:00.000-07:00

More fall nature pictures...

thought it would be fun since I haven't taken nature pictures in a long time :)

that's all...nothing less nothing more today...

Love,

PaperHeart

The poetry of the earth is never dead. ~John Keats

This is Ivy League - kissing queen (sounds a bit like kings of convenience)

"You Will Know What To Do..."

2009-10-22T09:51:00.000-07:00

I have a love hate relationship with fall.

I love fall because:

- that's when I have my birthday

-there's no other season with so many colors

-I love the smell of wet ground

-you know that Christmas is bit closer

-you can dress up in nice big wool shirts

-scarf tiiiiiiime, pretty pretty scarfs

-it's the time of the year when sitting inside under your blankets is exceptable

-beautiful light outside to take pictures

I hate fall because:

-IT'S SO FREAKING COLD!

-It means that my favorite season, Summer, is oveeeeeeeeer :(

-I don't get to wear pretty dresses outside anymore

-it just keeps getting colder till you can't feel your feet and fingers

-skin and lips get dry and it hurts

-it's dark(er)...which sucks...

Song that will make you feel warmer on this cold fall day:

"If I had another chance..."

2009-10-13T04:49:00.000-07:00

Went to see a "light show" there was in a theme park. I have to tell you that I was a bit dissapointed, I expected MUCH more...but here's all I got...I couldn't really take a lot of photos cause my hands were freeeezing to death.

Anyways, things at this end are moving forward a bit, had a job interview today and I really hope it went well, fingers crossed...

That's about it for today...empty head...

...but a full heart...

Sometimes I feel like the girl in this vid:

M:"need help?"

W:"who doesn't"

M:"Is that your heart?"

W:"yeah"

M:"it's big"

W: "It's small now..."

M:"small?"

W:"It was bigger before..."

M:"Scary"

W:"Yeah that's my problem..."

Aaaaaaaaaaw...I hate that man for doing that to her and not showing up! I know I know it's a freaking music video but still...well made one, at least the thought behind it...

"Life=Risk"

2009-10-08T01:32:00.000-07:00

A very motivating video my friend send me today...

Thought I'd like to share it here:

Love,

PaperHeart

"my skin is like a map of where my heart has been..."

2009-10-06T13:57:00.000-07:00

Drawing I made today...took a "couple" of hours...

thought I'd share...

Love,

PaperHeart

"my love's too big for you my love..."

2009-10-06T03:12:00.000-07:00

Once again I was playing around with my camera and tried to take photos with a sort of oldish andgelish feel to them and I think they turned out pretty nice. The bottom one is my favorite.

I was just listening to Ingrid Michaelson today (love her and loved her even more live in England) and somehow the lyrics in the song 'sort of' hit me, cause sometimes I'm "scared" that when I fall in love, like Ingrid sings, my love will be too big for you my love...I've talked about this before, my crave for love and my romantic side (that's pretty dominate side of me) I give a lot of love and I need a lot of it back...I really like the lyrics...sort of sad and happy at the same time. Ok, I'll just stop rambling about the L.O.V.E again hahah...

Here they are and the song is at the bottom again like always:

Baby, you've got the sort of hands to rip me apart
And baby, you've got the sort of face to start this old heart
But your eyes are warning me this early morning
That my love's too big for you my love

Baby, you've got the sort of laugh that waters me
And makes me grow tall and strong and proud and flattens me
I find you stunning, but you are running me down
My love's too big for you my love
My love's too big for you my love

And if I was stronger then I would tell you no
And if I was stronger then I will leave this show
And if I was stronger then I would up and go
But here I am and here we go again

Baby, you've got the sort of eyes that tell me tales
That your sort of mouth just will not say, the truth impales
That you don't need me, but you won't leave me
My loves too big for you my love
My loves too big for you my love

And if I was stronger then I would tell you no
And if I was stronger then I will leave this show
And if I was stronger then I would up and go
But here I am and here we go again

Tell me what to do, to take away the you

And if I was stronger then I would tell you no.
And if I was stronger then I will leave this show
And if I was stronger then I would up and go
But here I am and here we go again

Love,

PaperHeart

"did I sell my soul for this feeling so long ago?"

2009-09-28T03:40:00.000-07:00

Hahaaaaaaa!

So the guys/"my clients" hahah showed the pictures yesterday so it is ok for me to show them off here now :)

I really had blast doing this, I love when people dress up and get into the their characters and you just shoot "randomly" what they are doing :D oh and when you have such beautiful cars to use in those photos, aaaaah! PERFECT!

I just wish I'd own nice objects and good light :/ I have good ideas (although this idea was not mine but a "dream" that the guys had) but just not the means always to make them come true :(

Oh well, someday...

Anyways hope you'll enjoy these and have something to say about them :)

I was pleased to see 3 of the pictures hanging on their living room wall.

don't really have thought in my head right now...nothing that would move you people in anyway...except that I've finally come terms with the fact that fall truly is here...suuuuucks! cause it's getting colder and I can't wear my summer dresses anymore...

Love,

PaperHeart

"Another day...just breathe..."

2009-09-11T23:33:00.000-07:00

IT'S MY BIRTHDAY!!!! WOOOP WOOOP!!!

I love it and I hate it at the sametime! :D

I like the older version of this song better, the slower one, but here it is anyways :)

Kind of tells about my feelings right now :D haha

"into a world of possibilities..."

2009-09-08T11:34:00.000-07:00

There must be quite a few things that a hot bath won't cure, but I don't know many of them. ~Sylvia Plath

Hey there people, who ever you are, where ever you've come from!

I'm not sure if I have anything smart to say today. I feel somewhat tired and drained with life. I know and yet don't know why. Just a feeling I've had these couple of days. I'm guessing that there's mainly stress behind it this time. Funny thing stress is, it can drain you completely...even physically. Stress can be good for you as well as bad. It pushes you further in life, yet like most things in life, if you take it too far and don't know how to relax it will take sontrol over you and can even make you lose your mind. But don't worry, I'm not that stressed that I'd need mental help...atleast not yet :P

I should actually feel quite relaxed with my life right now...I have "nothing" to worry about and no ones expecting anything from me. So why do I feel stressed? Maybe exactly couse I have nothing to worry about. I have "nothing", which makes you stressed, couse you feel like you're nothing yourself and don't have a future. I know I'm not nothing, I am me and quite happy about that, but like I said, funny thing that stress ;D

Sometimes it's important to work for that pot of gold. But other times it's essential to take time off and to make sure that your most important decision in the day simply consists of choosing which color to slide down on the rainbow. ~Douglas Pagels

Anyways, I had a photo shoot on friday again, but I'm affraid I'm not "allowed" to show them just yet. My "clients" want to show them to their friends and stuff before I can show them off here :)

But here's few of the family photos I took like a month ago (this is the family I worked for in England...gorgeous children)

Hope you enjoy these few pics

Love,

PaperHeart

"your mouth is a trumpet somebody else plays..."

2009-09-01T12:16:00.000-07:00

All sorts of bodily diseases are produced by half-used minds. ~George Bernard Shaw

Yes, once again I'm being selfcentered for a moment, but I have a point to make with these photos, so bare with me won't yah! :)

I was going through my old photos and I ran into these pictures. These pictures are probably like 5 years old and my selfportraits from those days (which means I was around 16-17 years old). Right before I ran into these photos I talked with my friend and how much we're both annoyed with all the weightloss obsession that has taken over this world. (you already know how I feel about this since I've ranted about it before :P hahah) How it seems that the world just runs around looks and being skinnier and skinnier. It's a completely different thing to change your lifestyles to be healthy, than to diet yourself to death just couse you wanna be size 0.

"Funny" thing is that the people who obsess about it are the ones that have the least to worry about. The ones that are already skinny.

See the pictures above? that girl in those photos thought she was fat. Really!I was actually shocked myself when I saw those photos and remembered what my thoughts were. I really honestly did think I was big. WHAT THE CRAP IS THAT?! What on earth makes your head get so messed up? Why do we keep doing these things to ourselves? Torturing over something so tiny. I'm pretty sure that we were not born to this world to lose weight and weist our lifes on counting calories and how many steps we take today. There are far more important things in life! I know I myself still have some work to do on that field. I do every now and then wake up with the 'fat' thoughts, we all do and we ALL should just stop. Living healthy is great and I ingourage to do so, but it seems that we can't (atleast women can't) seem to keep it in control, we always take it too far. Way too far. If nothing else makes you realize that then just open the tv, it's freaking over loaded with weightloss programs and documentaries of anorexia. If I hear anyone talk to me about how fat they are or how they should lose weight one more time I'm gonna lose my mind.

Anyways, that was that for today. I know I didn't change anybodys life with this and the world will just keep doing things as always. But hey, atleast I got to let it all out and maybe just maybe realized something really important myself.

Be careful of your thoughts, they may become words at any moment. ~Iara Gassen

Love,

PaperHeart

Some Priscilla Ahn again...

"I forgot to tell you I love you..."

2009-08-25T14:27:00.000-07:00

The hunger for love is much more difficult to remove than the hunger for bread. ~Mother Teresa

Amen! Mother teresa clearly knew what she was talking about.

Love is the name of the game today.

I've been wondering about love lately and what it's all about (guess it's cause of all of the wedding photos) Love in the romantic sense that is. Not the way you love your mother or your friends, the way you love that someone special. Have I ever felt it? I don't know...I think so, yet I can't really say. Well I can honestly say that I haven't felt the "oh I'd go to the other end of the world, give you all the stars and die for you" kind of love. The kind where you give yourself to the other person 100%, don't hold back and just trust with your whole life on the other person.

I'm probably one of the most romantic people there are in the world and I might have maybe a bit too high expectations when it comes to love. No I'm not the crazy type who expects to be showered with gifts, serenades, love poems (although those are nice) and romantic meals all the time. I do have my feet on the ground. I know that the type of things that happen in movies are not real life, but sometimes I do wish something like that would happen to me. To be swept off my feet...I wanna feel that feeling. To be utterly and compelety in love. Who's to say that things can't happen in real life the way they are in movies? What is stopping us from doing things sometimes like in the movies? Just couse it's not real life, doesn't mean that we shouldn't try (atleast sometimes)...I know I'm gonna stay in my goofy romantic ways for the rest of my life. It's part of me, it is who I am...runs in my veins. And I'm probably gonna end up being the romantic one in the relationship..but hey it's ok cause I love giving as much as recieving. Making the other person happy. All though if I never got anything romantic back I'd probably "die", hahah yeha sounding like a romantic looney right now.

I do think about love quite often actually. Probably couse I feel the need for it all the time. Ponder it, and think of the different ways there are to love someone. It's the one thing that keeps this world running and not dying completely. Think about it. We'd probably all be dead without love. Couse with love comes kindness, caring for each other, protection and valuing peoples lifes. Without it I say we'd just end up killing each other.

Look at me trying to sound so smart, stating things that are already pretty much given facts in this life hahah

Love is the only sane and satisfactory answer to the problem of human existence. ~Eric Fromm

Amen to that as well!

Anyways here are some more wedding pics from this summer.

Hope you enjoy them!

Love,

PaperHeart

P.s. Remember to tell people you love how you really feel about them! Life's too short!

Time for a cheesy love song. I actually happen to love this song couse it helds so many memories. Enjoy if you can! ;D

"Inside my mind..."

2009-08-12T08:33:00.000-07:00

Boredom...this is what boredom does to you...you sit home alone, ideas come to your head but there's no models around...so what do you do? you start taking photos of yourself. And don't even use the ideas you had in your head...HOW selfcentered am I?

anyways I don't think I have any bright things to say today. Even though I have been alone with my thoughts all day.

Ugh, I need to get this life of mine in a roll...If anybody has any links or news for me about photography schools/classes in England and in Denmark then let me know (especially in Denmark since I can't seem to find any from there...international that is...I don't speak Danish) Why Denmark, you ask? couse we've been planing to move abroad with my sister together and she really wants to go to Denmark...so yeah...I don't have anything against it if I find a photography school in Englaish from there. If not England is still very dear to me and I do wanna go there...I'm just looking at all my options...

My brain is getting dumb...dumb dumbdi dumb...

yeaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhh....

"You're my one and only thrill..."

2009-08-11T13:40:00.000-07:00

To fear is one thing. To let fear grab you by the tail and swing you around is another. ~Katherine Paterson, Jacob Have I Loved

Hey Everyone!

I was looking through my blog and I realised something...there's something missing...can you figure out what it is? I realised that I don't say much...

I mean I know that I made this blog for my photography, to show the "world" what I'm made of, (photography wise that is). But I think it might actually be time for me to share more of my thought as well. Yes I know, surprisingly enough I do have thought in this 'always-in-a-dreamland' head of mine :)

Anything I've ever done that ultimately was worthwhile... initially scared me to death. ~Betty Bender

Something has been pressing my mind lately, well not as much pressing as making me restless. I wanna move back to England (or somewhere that is out of this country) and I've been desperately trying to find some schools. I'm full of this enthusiasm for moving away and starting something new and actually getting back to school. But things don't seem to go anywhere...I feel like I'm standing still.

And you know what? I hate fear...I hate it...

For a long looong time I had issues with going to school, fear mostly...fear of failing, or doing errors, fear of giving the wrong answers and fear of being disappointed...better yet being a disappointment. Fear of letting people down...I hate letting people down. Some would say that that sounds like a perfectionist, but I'm far from that. I'm just a chicken I suppose :P

Anyways, I was probably the most thrilled person in the world when I finally, after years of struggling, finished school and started just going to work. But now the time I thought would "never" come, has come and I want to go back to school so baaaad, couse I want to move forward in photography. Be the best that I can be in it. Actually learn all the right terms for things and pick someone else's brain, someone who knows more than I do now and could help me become better...possibly to be one of the best?

Now that I've finally gotten over the fear, things are not moving forward. Oh well, I suppose I just need to be patient and keep looking...I do strangly enough have a feeling inside that things will be alright, that they will go just as they're supposed to go. My life has done that for me so far (even when it has taken a turn I wouldn't have picked out as my first choise) so it might just be possible that it will continue doing just that. So we'll see...

Well I'm sure that the fear kicks in again when I find myself going for interviews for the schools (sounds so funny that you have to be interviewd for a school, but that's how it goes)

I suppose I should just imbrace fear and be thankful for it. With fear, like with almost anything in this life, there's always two ways to go. Either we learn from it or we get crippled by it. It should be something that pushes us forward, makes us grow as humans.

If there was nothing to fear for, life would be pretty empty in my oppinion. Couse usually behind fear there is a feeling that you have something to lose in this life. Something you wanna hold on to dearly. People who say that they aren't scared of anything, that they don't have fears, scare me :D hahah

There are times when fear is good. It must keep its watchful place at the heart's controls. ~Aeschylus

well that was that...thoughts about fear today ladies and gentleman :)

As you can see there's two drawings I made this evening...well I was practising. I haven't drawn in a long looong time and you can see that I'm really rusty. never thought that that would happen, but apparently it can. So bare with me on this. Or maybe I shoukld try and bare with myself on this...I'm always too hard on myself.

Anyways, thought I'd share them with you none the less, so there they are, enjoy!

Thanks for tuning in,

Love,

PaperHeart

Obstacles are like wild animals. They are cowards but they will bluff you if they can. If they see you are afraid of them... they are liable to spring upon you; but if you look them squarely in the eye, they will slink out of sight. ~Orison Swett Marden

"fade in to you, I think it's strange you never knew..."

2009-08-06T09:48:00.000-07:00

My photo project for today :)

They didn't quite turn out the way I had planned in my head (they never do actually) but I kind of like them none the less...

I got this idea one night in England when I was laying in my bed and just wondering stupid things like "hmm I wonder what it would feel like just to fade away...just fade to the air..." yeah I know random thoughts, but that's how I get my inspirations...I listen to music, wonder and see all these images in my head. That's how it goes...

And surprise surprise Mazzy Star's song fade into you was playing from my player at that moment :D hahah

Hope you enjoy them!

Love,

PaperHeart

"I just think I'm free..."

2009-07-21T07:43:00.000-07:00

Played around with some "old" photos today...
bored I tell yah, bored...

Love,
PaperHeart

"To hear your name or someone's laugh that is the same..."

2009-07-19T07:56:00.000-07:00

So here I am..back in Finland...and NOT liking it...
fevershly trying to find a way back to England...or more like money for photography school in England...I've decided to go back..just need the money :/
Anyways, I came back 3 days ago and had a wedding yesterday where I was the photographer for the couple's pics and as a guest in the actual wedding party, so it worked out nicely for me :)
Just showing you few of the pics, and surprise surprise I chose the B&W ones :P hahah
Still have plenty of photos to go through...sheeesh...

Love,
PaperHeart

"This is the thing..."

2009-07-13T13:13:00.000-07:00

Hey there people!
My time here in England is ending and I have bitter sweet feelings about it. England has really grown on me and I don't feel like going back home anymore.
Such is life!
Anyways, here are few family pictures I took of a really nice family I've gotten to know here. (much more to come...I took quite many pics)
Hope you enjoy them and I really hope they enjoy them!

PaperHeart

I love this song...Fink - This is the thing

"make my heart feel surprised..."

2009-06-17T10:05:00.000-07:00

hahah :D oh maan, I have to share somehting that happened today with
the youngest one of the kids...
He was in his room with his mom changing his clothes and they were singin "London bridge is falling down falling down falling down..." don't know if you're familiar with that song, but anyways, the funny part was when the mom stopped singing and we could hear what Topias was singin. He sang "London bitch is falling down falling down falling down" we burst out laughing and the poor guy had no idea what we were laughing at...aaaaw, bless him <3>

Another funny thing he said was when his grandparents were visiting and his grandma was putting on some makeup, he looked at her and asked "Why are you putting that on your face?"
Grandma: "It makes my skin look good"
Him: "and helps it from falling off"
HAHAHAH! Got to love kids :D hahah

Here's him wearing his "king of britain" outfit as he'd say:Love,
PaperHeart

"It's hard to let this go..."

2009-06-16T02:59:00.000-07:00

Hey yah people!
Had a great weekend with my big sis in London town, Thorpe park and Guildford. We were lucky to have great weather through the weekend and took some pictures randomly Unfortunately I didn't have my own camera with me in thorpe park (not a place for it :P) but I used my sisters cam and she has the pics from there. I LOOOVE rollercoasters and it was a good place to experience some rollercoaster madness!

So anyways, here's few pictures from this weekend:

See how graceful my sister is and then compare them to my movements in the pictures above...yeah not the most graceful person in the world...oh well you can't have it all hahah

Hope you all have a beautiful sunny summer weather as I do and can enjoy it full heartedly!
Love,
PaperHeart

"What do you want? what do you want from us?..."

2009-05-31T12:54:00.000-07:00

Hello there boys and girls and everyone inbetween!

I had the wedding last weekend and it went...well..ok I guess...

things didn't really go the way I had expected and it felt like there was too many things going on at the sametime for me to concentrade so I kind of stood there like a stupid person. And it made it even harder for me that it was in England, couse apparently people here do all the wedding fuss bt differently...oh well...we'll see what comes out of them..still in the middle of going through the photos.

I went to Bristol as well on that same weekend and took some nice photos at this GORGEOUS huge bridge they had there. It was my second time in Bristol and I was surprised that the first time I visited there, NO ONE told me about the bridge.

Better later than never I guess :)

Anyways, HEre's some pics from that bridge...we only went there during the night, but I think it gave a nice touch to the pictures:

Love,
PaperHeart

P.s. Still very much in love with Gotye:

"My love let me go again..."

2009-05-22T08:05:00.000-07:00

Annnnd I'm off to Bristol and tomorrow I have a wedding to take photos of...
wish me good luck! :)

Love,

PaperHeart

"But when I’m in doubt, I open my mouth..."

2009-05-15T07:58:00.000-07:00

Some pictures I took a while ago...

got to looove the way english "soliders" dress up and walk...

I want one of those furry hats :P hhahah

I just had to take a photo of Elli standing there...

look at the way her legs are! just so cute!

Oh and a new song people...
My new summer song I'd say
Just JAM ALONG!

Love,
PaperHeart

"I'm a fool to love you..."

2009-05-08T13:49:00.000-07:00

Oh I'm in loooooooooove with this commercial.

No surprise that it's Chanel's commercial, they just nail it every time...

(that's why I use Chanel myself...well not really, I just fell in love with the scent :D)

The Mood, the "story", the music, the colours, the sets...

it's just aaaah!

Something I wanna create in my photos,

I wanna nail it as well as they do!

That is my goal...

So wish me good luck!

and here's the commercial, got to looove Audrey Tautou

I would love to look like her, oh yes most defenetly:

and here's the actual song by Billie Holiday:

"I think it's time you understand, we're better off as two..."

2009-04-24T00:55:00.000-07:00

New layout!

Let me know what you think :)

Love,

PaperHeart

" I can't seem to make you mine..."

2009-04-16T08:57:00.000-07:00

More picies! Random ones again.

Look at my babies up there...so beautiful, both of them!

HAD TO take a picture of that moment <3

Went to theme park and died on the rollercoaster lines (seriously people 2 hours!)

I love merry go rounds...well I love the horses in them :)

There's just something about them that make me smile everytime...

Brobably just brings out the little child in me!

My cleaning mr at mcdonalds. Can't eat before cleaning the tables :D

He loves to clean.

Oh aaaaaand muuuusiiiiic!

Love,

PaperHeart

"buy it, use it, break it, fix it..."

2009-04-12T09:20:00.000-07:00

WOOOOOHOOOOO!!! PICTURES EVERYONE!!

some randome ones from here and there

from trips around England

Mostly B&W...seems that I've dropped back to that pattern (I have a thing for b&w pics, so bare with me :P)

hope you enjoy!

Love,

PaperHeart

p.s. and some gooooooooood music again...party ooon"

"Fed up with your indigestion..."

2009-04-06T16:07:00.000-07:00

Oh this joyful day people!

I might get my pictures on the run tomorrow!

(or some day this week)

WOOOOHOOOO!

I have tons of pics from here already!

I FEEEEEL SOOOOOO HAPPY!

but also bit annoyed with the world today and with its obsession with size 0 and all that crap!

I saw the house bunny movie on saturday

and I was SO happy to see that the main actress

(not the bunny girl, but the red head)

was normal sized! and I was sooo happy!

but then I searched for the actresses later on from the internet

and realized that even she had gone and lost ton of weight to look like skin and bones

with the rest of the actors...

I felt SO dissapointed!

IF (now this is a big if) I EVER BECOME A KNOWN PHOTOGRAPHER

and

IF I EVER DO "FASHION"SHOOTS...

I'll do my best to find the most normal sized people ever!

WAKE UP PEOPLE AND SMELL THE BACON!

better yet EAT THE BACON!!

IT HAS GONE TOO FAR!!

Sorry, had to let all that out...

Here's some happy music!

Love,

PaperHeart

"I can teach you thing or two...yeah yeah..."

2009-04-03T07:52:00.000-07:00

OK it seems that my blog has now turned into "nanny stories" and lost it's meaning as a photography blog (it will return back to it's original roots when I go back home, so bare with me), couse once again I have a story that happened today with the younges kid.

Here goes:

I was playing upstairs with him while waiting for the mom to come home when all of a sudden he let out this huuuuge fart, and when I say huge I mean the kind that lasts long and sounds like something else has come out as well. He got a scared look on his face and then said "I didn't poop...I didn't poop..."

me: "really? couse it smells like it...are you sure you didn't poop?"

he: "I didn't poop..." he still looks awkward and won't sit down next to me to play with the cars even though he said that he wants to. Then he all of a sudden says that he wants to go downstairs. We get to the top of the stairs and I try to pick him up to carry him down and he says that he will walk himself...this surprised me couse he usually wants someone to carry him. He walked in a really weird way and still wouldn't sit down and all of a sudden he started babling on and on saying "you clean me in the bathtub, mummy cleans me in the sink...why do you clean me in the bathtub?" this went on and on and on, till the mom came home. He ran to her and said "Mom I made a huge poop! clean it!" At this point I was laughing so hard and I told the whole thing to the mom and we both laughed.

It seemed that the last time I cleaned his poopy butt in the bathtub he had hated it and was scared this time that I would do the same thing again :D Poor thing had to walk around the house for a half an hour with a big poop in his pants, just couse he was scared of the tub :D Hahahahah!

anyways...those are the highlights of my days now a days...how saaaaaad :P hahaha but in its own way fun I guess. I do love these kids even though as lovely as they are, they do have their bad days as well :)

I have like million photography ideas in my head again, but they're something I can only do when I back in Finland, so I had to scetch them up so that I'd remember them after this trip. Hopefully I'll find good models for them :)

If any of my friends back in Finland are reading, sign up babies!

That's for it today I think...

Here's a song I reunited with after a looong loong time...reminds me of the good party times I had with my girlies!

Love,

PaperHeart

"who do you love when love is gone?"

2009-03-28T17:11:00.000-07:00

I'm so glad that one of my favourite artists has new album out...love Kate Havnevik...

so my type of music...

and once again I like the lyrics:

Who do you love, when love is gone?

Who do you hunger in this great unknown?

Memories of me will fade soon& you'll find someone new

See everyone halo bright in beauty

See everyone arrayed for you to try

You're not alone in being alone

Six billion people one of them's right for you

Who do you mean when you change your tone?

Who do you dream of when you're half asleep with one eye open?

You'll become your life soon&

I won't be in your way

See everyone halo bright in beauty

See everyone arrayed for you to try

You're not alone in being alone

Six billion people - one of them's right for you

Who do you see when you stare into space?

Who do you seek out in cyberspace?

See everyone halo bright in beauty

See everyone arrayed for you to try

You're not alone in being alone

Six billion humans - one of them's right for you

I don't know what it is about these lyrics...they seem to hit me right now...they seem so sad and yet kind of hopeful in the end...yeah I'm just blabing about some lyrics that probably have like no effect on you guys and seem lame :D hahah but I like them...

Went to a city called Guildford today...took some nice pictures, BUT I CAN'T POST THEM! couse I have a weird computer...

wish I had some pics to post...

Love,

PaperHeart

"I close my eyes on the dancefloor..."

2009-03-26T10:07:00.000-07:00

I'm so annoyed right now...all I can do is post freaking videos...greaaaaaat! not the point of this blog...gaaaaaaaaaaah!
I'm NOT having a good day today...

But this song did cheer me up little bit...

Oh and another thing that cheered me up (well this happened last week)

was when I was at home with the youngest one of the kids (2 years old) and he came to me and said "mmm...big poop came"

me: "Ok, well I guess we need to change it then..."

him: "yeah..." he's quiet for a while and then has a concerned look on his face.

Me: "what is it?"

he: "Are you sure you're not gonna get any poop on your fingers?"

and I couldn't help but just laugh. He was soooooo cute and so worried about it :D

"don't wanna be yours no more..."

2009-03-16T05:14:00.000-07:00

Yes people I'm still alive...juts not able to get my pics up which buggs me SOOOO MUCH!

That is the whole point of this blog and my passion so I'm going nuts here :/

But one positive thing DID happen, I got a comp...not a good one but a comp none the less...

Just need to see if it can run my precious photothingies...

These kind of things, these little things that you don't realize that you need so much till you lose them, those little things make me miss home :)

And missing my friends (which is not a little thing to miss) doesn't help either. Oh well it just makes you appreciate home more and what you have in your life.

Ok, ok, things arent's as bad as they sound, I AM LOVING IT HERE! and it's a lovely experience in every way. And what's even greater, it's getting SO MUCH warmer here. The flowers are blooming the birds are singing and I didn't need a jacket outside today, L.O.V.E.L.Y :)

And London still has my heart and will probaböy always have it...

That's it for today...

all I can really say is that I'm working on it and hopefully I will have my pics up soon :)

Thanks for your patience ;)

Love,

PaperHeart

Some brainless fun my friend send me...yeah I know, no point...yet you laugh at it :P

and music ofcourse :)

" grounds for divorce...."

2009-03-02T10:40:00.000-08:00

Some poop news...
I'm living in England right now and apparrently won't be having an computer for ages...so yeah...I don't know what I'm gonna do and how I'm gonna put up my pics?
I'm sooo maaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaad right now!
my blog CAN'T DIE!

:(

ah well...atleast there's always good music...which I rarely hear now a days...poop...